Michelle, rule No40# MeetYourDemons,It'llBeOkay.

My hands are sweating. I’m shakin.

it takes a long time to commit a decision.

I’m reckless in this way. I don’t want to want.

Coz when one does, there’s expectations.

There’s so much in my head, I don’t think I can do it anymore.

Not for another single soul. It makes me shiver, curl in bed,

soak my pillow, crinkle my fore head, hold my breath,

try not to make a sound. Think, and forget myself.

You won’t understand. Just leave me be.

I’m leaving things behind, one at a time...

Its just not me to rain all the time.
And that’s what the weathers like.

Syl. Milk. Jere. Me, i’ll keep loving without having any of youse by my side, i dont deserve any of you.

Who am i to say...

To Syl:

You said, don’t lie to yourself.So i wont.

Syl, i love you... like i m dying tomorrow.

And i cant ...keep on, because you’d be left
alone unloved, and boo i told myself i’d never
leave. So i cant lie to my self tht you've changed
me,considering for you as much as i am to my self,
its gets harder each day, to say goodbye. Can we
make things easier. So we'd not feel a thing...?

To Milk:

Love of my life, my soul mate

You're my best friend

Part of me like breathing

Now half of me is left...
Its you, who gave me reasons...
some i never deserved. Keep strong.

To Jere:
pretty soul broken by our undivided fate,
so divided its the hardest part of reality,
please take care of your self, please let
the girl give you all i could never give,closure.

To Me:

I told my sister one day, after the heart aches that

overwhelmed one day, that i’ll leave all so no one
would get hurt.but for me its okay, Coz I don’t matter.

+Cause i Don’t know where I’m at

I’m standing at the back

And I’m tired of waiting

Waiting here in line, hoping that I’ll find what I’ve been chasing.

I shot for the sky

I’m stuck on the ground

So why do I try, I know I’m gonna to fall down

I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?

Never know why it’s coming down, down, down.