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"we dont deserve chances, we earn them"
- *Le-lvleredith *.
- Perth, Western Australia, Australia
- "Motivation iisThemTelling me Something i cant do"+ + 310393: 5ft9in + Aries.mind&body: 狂.noMercy.烈 STATUS: ItWasNeverEnoughBeingSure, iWanaBeCertain&ThisTymeTry &stopHer-"cantStopWontstop"+ 31.03.93 #Title: "TilWeMeet Again"inSanctuary- As she speak: "Some day, some day of days, threading the street With idle, heedless pace,unlooking for such grace, I shall behold & trace, grasp upon this face,&allow Some day, Day0fDays, with a screech of this beat, thus may we meet- at heart, at soul..Let us keep"-lvlL
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“We lie awake in our battlefields, One chance to prove ourselves, We will prevail, Our will to live is powerful and our strength will never fade away, To the weak who try to stop us, You don't have the strength, So save your breath, Stand your ground when our hate has been concealed I'll carry it to the grave now that fate is revealed, Hold your head up high, Cause tomorrow you may die, Cause there's no one safe around here, Stand your ground, Til you're the last one in town. Keeps on glowing, And the winds of change will keep on blowing”- Cant.Stop.Wont.Stop.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Mail ol Friend. Take Care.
Sent : 10:01 ; 13th Feb 11;
Mirrored numbers, a ten for two. Each.
or to my own words and to others,
it mirrors the same back,
as much as I need theirs ,I’ll need my own.
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:.
Vivere via nostra est, mori fatum nostrum est ?
instead,
I see that Death is only one word worth a place in our lifelong narrative… .
so why give it destiny when its only nothingness,
well, :P Stop slacking in your meet to darkness, you can run but you can’t hide :P.
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:.
Syl syl syl, breathe the longest one possible.
Milk ilk milk, eyes close as long as possible.
Jere, jere jere, sigh the biggest one possible
me, me, me, n-v-r-s-a-y-n-v-r.
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:.
Its your 14th of Feb, 2011, Monday. Valentine’s day.
Dear dear Daniel,
Like a rainbow glistening through the rain,
Like a glowing spring time after a cold gray winter,
Like joy and delight,
Like a good book by a cozy fire,
You are the comfort many people would admire.
More than I can say….
I respect and mind for you;
and I just want you to know,
You’ve made a difference till this very day
To whom you may share your hours to,
Either way, I'd still think of you, brother,
Lover, friend, Happy Valentine’s day .
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:.
I feel there’s no need for me to hide my disgust to that
word no more for its time I decode &face it…
but doesn’t matter really, cause we’ll always be that loser
freak people fail to realize xP or in other words, gifted inside out!
weeeeetarrrrrrrrdddd Don’t deny, just because we have a weapon to cover
and disguise the inner tard-ness, doesn’t mean this time, anyone’s playing
no seek nor hide! I’m kitty, Ionly scratch. Your tomato, u only ROT HOHO,
lovely, one mato juicey mushroom yeast punch at your service!
yes, I love roses, and yes I do keep em dry and fusty in bouquet borders,
but I aint hippy enough to love rainbows, bongs, marshmallows,
lollipop nor icecream, sounds more obeast than hippy actually, the only
still feel 10, 20, or 50 or 200 at different occasions. its not always decent neither,
so wtv surrounds me in myroom only remind me of something I missed out on,
youth, coz FUCK responsibilities.yet FUCK you gotta love the Shit hole.
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:.
why does crying make us feel fucked up? Is it just me?
Cause you don’t have to feel that way okay?
Or is “fucked up” even the right words for it? What is it?
Ever tried decoding your feelings into depth and closure?
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:.
MB: You are you. You are yourself most when you are
alone in your dangerous room that’ve witnessed
your death and genesis moments. Where her mind marries her heart (fuse).
Where she became rationaland not narcissistic (such as myself).
Yeah, the skin she’s wearing doesn’t matter cause its what’s inside
that counts. She’s the bright shadow of everyone which makes them
feel so fucking good (support system). She never wondered (maybe once?)
why she can’t be that happily ever person not because she believes that
happily ever after is soo once upon a time BUT because she’s contented
of what she has. She’s the kind of person that could make one look for
her in everyone. She’s a woman and she’s wonderful.
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:.
“the you are you” passage.
-right, : dangerous when alone
-true, : mind marries her heart
-believe so, : inside that counts
-really? =D : support system?
-sigh, yes. : wondered once but content
-Maybe someday. : lookin for her in everyone
-unintentionally : women? Wonders?
-beautiful vibe : your “ruined days” ( brush under ur eyes)
-just myself : one man’s army,
-have to/want to : saint/sinner
-nature’s aestheticity : codes/number/symbolism
-Thats a killer : “SHe is the story that never gets old and the
story I’d want to keep. SHe is t.h.e constant”
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:.
cheers to some day ! I want my ceiling a sphere thick glass,
might need to get use to the sky =) and and mirrored
walls everywhere! Except my ultimate dreamy art studio
ahem someday =D , colors installed will blind with pleasure! .
You’re closer by the minute okay?
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..|
You said :
“Happiness needs sadness. Success needs failure.
Benevolence needs evil. Love needs hatred.
Victory needs defeat. Pleasure needs pain.
You must experience and accept the extremes.
Because if the contrast is lost, you lose appreciation;
and when you lose appreciation, you lose the value of everything.”
do they really need each other? i feel the work need is diguised:
Happiness compromises sadness. Failure wishes success.
Benevolence creates evil. Love accepts hatred.
Victory feeds defeat. Pleasure predicts pain. Lost awaits found,
appreciation projects beauty, abuse worsen nothingness …
(perhaps it’s said for…balanced, for scale and acceptance,
To consider each will to consider another, Nothing is perfect just by itself,
to accept happiness is to accept sadness too.. values,
so maybe it’s telling us not to have too much of anything,
but to keep both in an equilibrium, for worth while’s sake,
for equality’s sake and for everything’s sake, to do em justice.)
“I’m a man, and I live for life because you ain’t alive if you ain’t living.”
But the Barbie Nicki M. said `to live doesn't mean you're alive - (Moment4Life ft.drizzy)
hmm, well everyone’s got diffo purpose to serve in life,
that’s what means to them, but many makes of their own.
for mee…
” I’m me, and I live to let life live by me as I make of it,
it appreciates me through those given minutes,
I live to whenever I’d die & appreciates back By feeling it .” Simple.
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..|
Hmm burden are burdens, sharing means selfish,
not sharing means selfish too, so “only” with this
I’d usually stand still, share is the hardest thing,
when at times you believe others cant help and wont
benefit from it, why share and worsen their burdens?
That’s just me, but I always wished people came
to me for answer, cause I never asked nothing in return,
like santa, fat in fate and a lil bit in wisdom.
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..|
Hmm, I believe what dad’s doing got you stronger, maybe to him ,
real men are numb – strict – sturdy- and machines?
And your under his guidance to the “becoming” of em?
God will bless chu, wisely either way.
Engrave four words into your brain: “cant stop, wont stop”.
That kept me keeping on.
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..|
Note to selves: You’re not skeptical, you just want many things,
like one of anything is never enough?
And afraid from wanting ‘d affect other things;
MB: “Screw you! Just need a truck of beer, stay beside me and
I’ll unload everything on you. Get your recorder on
full batt cause I’d never stop putting shit,
watch me whine bout everything (watch me cry too).”
sounds dime, would you trust me to trust you ? and next day when
you’re conscious, I would word you in detail about everything,
so you know it’s okay to speech as so day or night and know
not to act differently cause it’d be great if you understood
the needlessness to be someone you’re not.
no suits, no status, cocky, power image shit, just tee &
quarter jeans with your baby sneakers or slip ons,
when’s the last time you feel home, in your pj’s and shit ?
no matter how much face you have to put on at
work stay fat like the kinsmen baby in your family, welfed and firm !
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..
but perhaps, Respectively-
let fate do it’s duty.Toast, to you and Zar, to brotherhood, to love & hate and to future.
world, rest well rest your worries, rest your mind, thoughts, responsibilities,
burdens… as I’ll rest mine in my own pace.And keep the noise down.
Everything is okay, so complication wouldn’t benefit. Good night or day, rain or shine,
right or wrong, just be okay.
tears never helped so I wont make em stay, worry not for tomorrow is a new day.
took me too long to fix this, backspaced, so you wouldn’t feel other ways.
- llvlL .
Mirrored numbers, a ten for two. Each.
or to my own words and to others,
it mirrors the same back,
as much as I need theirs ,I’ll need my own.
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:.
Vivere via nostra est, mori fatum nostrum est ?
instead,
I see that Death is only one word worth a place in our lifelong narrative… .
so why give it destiny when its only nothingness,
well, :P Stop slacking in your meet to darkness, you can run but you can’t hide :P.
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:.
Syl syl syl, breathe the longest one possible.
Milk ilk milk, eyes close as long as possible.
Jere, jere jere, sigh the biggest one possible
me, me, me, n-v-r-s-a-y-n-v-r.
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:.
Its your 14th of Feb, 2011, Monday. Valentine’s day.
Dear dear Daniel,
Like a rainbow glistening through the rain,
Like a glowing spring time after a cold gray winter,
Like joy and delight,
Like a good book by a cozy fire,
You are the comfort many people would admire.
More than I can say….
I respect and mind for you;
and I just want you to know,
You’ve made a difference till this very day
To whom you may share your hours to,
Either way, I'd still think of you, brother,
Lover, friend, Happy Valentine’s day .
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:.
I feel there’s no need for me to hide my disgust to that
word no more for its time I decode &face it…
but doesn’t matter really, cause we’ll always be that loser
freak people fail to realize xP or in other words, gifted inside out!
weeeeetarrrrrrrrdddd Don’t deny, just because we have a weapon to cover
and disguise the inner tard-ness, doesn’t mean this time, anyone’s playing
no seek nor hide! I’m kitty, Ionly scratch. Your tomato, u only ROT HOHO,
lovely, one mato juicey mushroom yeast punch at your service!
yes, I love roses, and yes I do keep em dry and fusty in bouquet borders,
but I aint hippy enough to love rainbows, bongs, marshmallows,
lollipop nor icecream, sounds more obeast than hippy actually, the only
still feel 10, 20, or 50 or 200 at different occasions. its not always decent neither,
so wtv surrounds me in myroom only remind me of something I missed out on,
youth, coz FUCK responsibilities.yet FUCK you gotta love the Shit hole.
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:.
why does crying make us feel fucked up? Is it just me?
Cause you don’t have to feel that way okay?
Or is “fucked up” even the right words for it? What is it?
Ever tried decoding your feelings into depth and closure?
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:.
MB: You are you. You are yourself most when you are
alone in your dangerous room that’ve witnessed
your death and genesis moments. Where her mind marries her heart (fuse).
Where she became rationaland not narcissistic (such as myself).
Yeah, the skin she’s wearing doesn’t matter cause its what’s inside
that counts. She’s the bright shadow of everyone which makes them
feel so fucking good (support system). She never wondered (maybe once?)
why she can’t be that happily ever person not because she believes that
happily ever after is soo once upon a time BUT because she’s contented
of what she has. She’s the kind of person that could make one look for
her in everyone. She’s a woman and she’s wonderful.
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:.
“the you are you” passage.
-right, : dangerous when alone
-true, : mind marries her heart
-believe so, : inside that counts
-really? =D : support system?
-sigh, yes. : wondered once but content
-Maybe someday. : lookin for her in everyone
-unintentionally : women? Wonders?
-beautiful vibe : your “ruined days” ( brush under ur eyes)
-just myself : one man’s army,
-have to/want to : saint/sinner
-nature’s aestheticity : codes/number/symbolism
-Thats a killer : “SHe is the story that never gets old and the
story I’d want to keep. SHe is t.h.e constant”
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:.
cheers to some day ! I want my ceiling a sphere thick glass,
might need to get use to the sky =) and and mirrored
walls everywhere! Except my ultimate dreamy art studio
ahem someday =D , colors installed will blind with pleasure! .
You’re closer by the minute okay?
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..|
You said :
“Happiness needs sadness. Success needs failure.
Benevolence needs evil. Love needs hatred.
Victory needs defeat. Pleasure needs pain.
You must experience and accept the extremes.
Because if the contrast is lost, you lose appreciation;
and when you lose appreciation, you lose the value of everything.”
do they really need each other? i feel the work need is diguised:
Happiness compromises sadness. Failure wishes success.
Benevolence creates evil. Love accepts hatred.
Victory feeds defeat. Pleasure predicts pain. Lost awaits found,
appreciation projects beauty, abuse worsen nothingness …
(perhaps it’s said for…balanced, for scale and acceptance,
To consider each will to consider another, Nothing is perfect just by itself,
to accept happiness is to accept sadness too.. values,
so maybe it’s telling us not to have too much of anything,
but to keep both in an equilibrium, for worth while’s sake,
for equality’s sake and for everything’s sake, to do em justice.)
“I’m a man, and I live for life because you ain’t alive if you ain’t living.”
But the Barbie Nicki M. said `to live doesn't mean you're alive - (Moment4Life ft.drizzy)
hmm, well everyone’s got diffo purpose to serve in life,
that’s what means to them, but many makes of their own.
for mee…
” I’m me, and I live to let life live by me as I make of it,
it appreciates me through those given minutes,
I live to whenever I’d die & appreciates back By feeling it .” Simple.
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..|
Hmm burden are burdens, sharing means selfish,
not sharing means selfish too, so “only” with this
I’d usually stand still, share is the hardest thing,
when at times you believe others cant help and wont
benefit from it, why share and worsen their burdens?
That’s just me, but I always wished people came
to me for answer, cause I never asked nothing in return,
like santa, fat in fate and a lil bit in wisdom.
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..|
Hmm, I believe what dad’s doing got you stronger, maybe to him ,
real men are numb – strict – sturdy- and machines?
And your under his guidance to the “becoming” of em?
God will bless chu, wisely either way.
Engrave four words into your brain: “cant stop, wont stop”.
That kept me keeping on.
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..|
Note to selves: You’re not skeptical, you just want many things,
like one of anything is never enough?
And afraid from wanting ‘d affect other things;
MB: “Screw you! Just need a truck of beer, stay beside me and
I’ll unload everything on you. Get your recorder on
full batt cause I’d never stop putting shit,
watch me whine bout everything (watch me cry too).”
sounds dime, would you trust me to trust you ? and next day when
you’re conscious, I would word you in detail about everything,
so you know it’s okay to speech as so day or night and know
not to act differently cause it’d be great if you understood
the needlessness to be someone you’re not.
no suits, no status, cocky, power image shit, just tee &
quarter jeans with your baby sneakers or slip ons,
when’s the last time you feel home, in your pj’s and shit ?
no matter how much face you have to put on at
work stay fat like the kinsmen baby in your family, welfed and firm !
.:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..:*+x*+:..
but perhaps, Respectively-
let fate do it’s duty.Toast, to you and Zar, to brotherhood, to love & hate and to future.
world, rest well rest your worries, rest your mind, thoughts, responsibilities,
burdens… as I’ll rest mine in my own pace.And keep the noise down.
Everything is okay, so complication wouldn’t benefit. Good night or day, rain or shine,
right or wrong, just be okay.
tears never helped so I wont make em stay, worry not for tomorrow is a new day.
took me too long to fix this, backspaced, so you wouldn’t feel other ways.
- llvlL .
identity.
BIOGRAPHY- Visual Arts
Personal Expression:
“
Spirit & Motives:
Spirit & Motives:
“Encouraging a love for the arts = Enhancing appreciation for the arts, = Cultivating fundamental abilities = Enriching sentiments"
Thoughts becoming Actions:
Thoughts becoming Actions:
“I believe my art comes from the mental, physical, emotional as well as spiritual character that shapes a particular imagination into forms of actuality”-ML
Progression and appreciation:
Through actual hand on experience, I began to understand the unity and aesthetics in art comes from dedication from the heart and resolution of its technicality whilst using knowledge to utilize one’s aptitude is an essential approach to art.
Effects of touch:
I personally believed that art is a movement, an expression and skill that “brings alive” the beauty around us. From buildings, landscape, craft, fashion to raw nature... art is all around and can foster the building of bridges between cultures and ideas.
I personally believed that art is a movement, an expression and skill that “brings alive” the beauty around us. From buildings, landscape, craft, fashion to raw nature... art is all around and can foster the building of bridges between cultures and ideas.
Ambition & Identity:
“My goal is to be an architect, feel like an artist and act as a designer and think like a business person” – this way i can contribute the environment as an architect, be my spiritually artistic self and at the same time benefit from practicality.
“My goal is to be an architect, feel like an artist and act as a designer and think like a business person” – this way i can contribute the environment as an architect, be my spiritually artistic self and at the same time benefit from practicality.
Learning Experiences:
I’ve always dreamed to travel around the globe and document every perfect edge exists in the world, “a snap shot of an experience can last a millennium, a capture of opportunity can change your life.”-ML
Sincerely,
Michelle Lee
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Teddy i'll wait till its brighter before i write on you. GoodNyt World.
SnM Convo- 16th Feb- 6-11:20pm; M post 17th 11:30-12:30am; S post; 17th 11am-12pm
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16th Feb Wednesday 6 pm onwards - 17th Feb Thursday 12pm
After Shine: there was a heavy rain, so ere goes :
**************************************************************
M:10:22pm
biii, i 'll never know .
S: 10:22pm
i do trust ur words i really doo..
M:10:22pm
do u remember when i told u i dont trust me?
that i need to scare my self to remember whats important so i can prevent it?
S: 10:23pm
hmmm
yes i do bii
scare ur self from what bii?
M:10:24pm
trip out
so i dont make the same mistakes.
u know how i am when im fcked.
S: 10:25pm
yes><
M:10:25pm
thts jst how i am bii sometimes
i feel the need to run so ppl wont feel for me,
and wont be draged along with my constant worries.
even with chu bii =s and everyone,
thts why im always in my one man's army...
M:10:29pm
one day you'll be tired of the way i am,
and i just hope i'd be the first to know biii....
S: 10:44pm
bii
S: 10:45pm
im tired… eyes hurt
sorry for goin on with this
i just needed to let u know how i felt
M:10:45pm
good nyt syl x
S: 10:45pm
an know why u couldnt sleep last night
M:10:46pm
one day i'll hate unfinished convos with my guts
but now u maybe excuse. night bii..x rest assured.
S: 10:47pm
wait please sleep tonight i hate it when she doesnt rest on time..
good nyt il try have a good day an u try have a pleasent day
M:10:49pm
i hate many things too , but i cant help it neither jst rest ,
leave me be syl. im always better this way
S: 10:49pm
one day..x
M:10:49pm
sharing is a burden admit to tht. nights
S: 10:49pm
nope its a cure
M:10:50pm
never. not with me. this wont finish anyway. so bii good nyt
S: 10:50pm
it will with me
M:10:51pm
it never finishes, coz its michelle lee. night bii
S: 10:51pm
it always finishes its sylvester naing
M:10:51pm
conflict
S: 10:52pm
resolve?
M:10:52pm
no, leave it.
S: 10:52pm
why? cause im tired bi?
M:10:53pm
u'll be even more tired one day
soo tired neither of us can stay.
S: 10:53pm
shut up bii stop saying that ><
M:10:53pm
JST realise good night bi
S: 10:54pm
noo i only said that so maybe she can be her
self when i go to sleep an thinks im better off..
M:10:55pm
i wish u'd be better offf with me.
S: 10:56pm
i wish u would stop putting ur self down an
making me wanna do things i dont think about
or wanna think i rather have you give me words
to help me then push me bii so please..
M:10:57pm
this is the only this i'd put my self down on ,
realistically perhapps u believe in beauty so much,
u can barely accept the opposite
S: 10:58pm
thats not true i can if i want to but i chose not iv
seen what it does an i dislike the feeling thats
why i choose the other bii..
M:10:59pm
jere dissapointed me after the 3rd year.
and it all just went to nothing from
everything to 0 contact just like tht
S: 10:59pm
so ur waiting for me to do the same?
M:11:00pm
so i want u to realise time isnt a factor
S: 11:00pm
can u least prevent it words touch cries
M:11:00pm
so u rather prevent than cure?
S: 11:00pm
no
M:11:00pm
he prevent ALOT he's always tired
he needs my comforting words after school
he wants his gf back he misses the old cuddly me
FUCK HIM if im ever a need then
fuck evryone of u if you need me to be this
or tht failing to keep up is a mistake
and i dont care what we had
S:11:03pm
are u talkn about us bii?
M:11:03pm
do u think so?
S: 11:04pm
sounds like ur talk bout us/
M:11:04pm
thts the problem im not and it already sounds like us
S: 11:04pm
please do quote when she talks
M:11:04pm
arent i SHITTING my self or what No, this is how it works..
S: 11:04pm
i dont get sometimes whos it at bii.
M:11:04pm
if i quote, u wouldnt care but i dint and u thought it was us,
S:11:05pm
FUCK HIM if im ever a need then fuck evryone of
u if you need me to be this or tht failing to keep up
is a mistake and i dont care what we had
M:11:05pm
but tht was me and jere, so do u know why i m the way i am?
afraid to make the same mistake in such a short time?
S: 11:06pm
the fuck everyone part to some people it sounds like
to them an then after u carried on with if you need
me sounds like me.. .bii could least say i dont care
what he an i had... baby...
M:11:06pm
that WAS to you
S: 11:07pm
really...
M:11:07pm
because thts how i had to act B4 too
S: 11:07pm
u dont care what we had?
M:11:07pm
i couldnt care with 3 years what do u think
S: 11:08pm
i think ur bullshitting
M:11:08pm
im most fucked when ppl let me down most FUCKED
M:11:09pm
u followin jere's footsteps,
S: 11:09pm
no bi u brought it up
M:11:09pm
THTS FUCKS ME UP i cant ignore tht
S: 11:09pm
then say i dont want to talk about it bii then theres no need
M:11:10pm
fine if u think not talking bout it solves it
soo perfect ly then go for it,
coz jere dint wanted to neither,
he couldnt keep up, he's tired,
he misses the old times AND SHIT go for it!
S: 11:10pm
noo bii wrong if i talk about it this is how she will
behave or act if i dont then she will think
otherwise what am i suppose to do bii?
M:11:12pm
1112 unlucky. does tht mean we cant talk about anything to each other already
S: 11:12pm
no bii u still dont get my point
M:11:13pm
why does it feel like u dont wanna talk about it instead of me?
S: 11:13pm
its like i cant talk to u but i want to about these
part of ur life with out been told whats wrong
M:11:14pm
are u kidding ive always felt like that was a no go
topic for u FUCK ASSUMPTIONS to the both of us
S: 11:14pm
have u listened to ur self bii read what we have
talked about an tell me what do u notice? ><
M:11:14pm
im mad
S: 11:14pm
and?
M:11:14pm
and im trying to tell u something that
kills me most so u wouldnt do the same
S: 11:15pm
besides that be tell mee your mood
M:11:15pm
and realise, that one little fragile thing can make me throw it all away as i did
S:11:15pm
ur status how do u look from my view?
M:11:16pm
shit? alarmed. which status. its just soo easy to throw shit away when i feel like tht
S: 11:17pm
i know bii
M:11:17pm
too bad you cant slap the fuck out of me
S: 11:17pm
thats why im doin my best
M:11:17pm
but too bad this is just ME
S: 11:18pm
too bad im already with her
M:11:18pm
everything is reversible
S: 11:18pm
too bad we both gonna work this out together
M:11:18pm
u can go get married now too
i'd be fine and happy for you, thts what i mean
S: 11:18pm
STOP BEEN SO DAMN STUBBORN BII..
M:11:18pm
ABOUT WHAT dude,
i want u to know i never always my concious fucking self
S: 11:19pm
i can tell ok bii
M:11:19pm
and sumtimes this me is more realistic than tru
and ppl rather fck ol than keep on and im granting
u a path fck it.
S: 11:19pm
please stop with the negatives..
M:11:19pm
good nyt syl bi
S: 11:19pm :'(
M: 11:20pm
please stop withe the unrealistic optimism
S: 11:20pm
sorry if i tried.x.nyt bi
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16th Feb Wednesday 6 pm onwards - 17th Feb Thursday 12pm
After Shine: there was a heavy rain, so ere goes :
**************************************************************
SnM Convo- 16th Feb- 6-11:20pm; M post 17th 11:30-12:30am; S post; 17th 11am-12pm
Sylvester Naing
♥
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Michelle Lee
i heard sorries, syl dont be killing me this early.please,
i hate that your sorries dont fit anywhere you say em, i hate most when you say:"sorry
for bringing it up" when all i wanted was to feel everything anything. the last thing i need
is for you to doubt your self. but everything i hate about you i love, or i wouldnt feel everythin...
in everyway. its morning, and you have duties to pay your visit, good day syl.
Sylvester Naing
i love you...
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Sylvester Naing
sometimes I feel like were the worst of friends
time is spent but just to her extent
and I don’t resent cus of her expense
I’m trying to explain but theres her defence
...I respect you, the things that I said I never meant to
straight, I ain’t fake and I aint gotta pretend boo
i see you in the mirror, you an exact resemblence
you just like me, I’m sorry I acted selfish
we both equal the same kind of people
me and you the picture frame gotta sequel
I wouldn’t leave you, I’m still by ya side
and at the end of the day I know you still down to ride
Bonnie and Clyde whatever you call it
I’m right behind, whenever your fallin
a big fight is just a small fraction
of us we just gotta be real and adapt it..x
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Michelle Lee
Laid still & its morning again,
10:10am. snaps out of it but not the problem.
Sylvester Naing
I’m trying to explain but theres her defence
...I respect you, the things that I said I never meant to
straight...wait for me bii it will get better it MUST GET BETTER..
we gotta do it step at a time even if it hurts im learning ur learning im...
yearning ur yearning for more.x
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Michelle Lee
16th Feb 6pm- 12am. Its time i wont forget nights like you. good bye tonight.
Sylvester Naing im sorry for bring out lastnight.
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Michelle Lee
Status: Hearts speeding, headaches, under my breath trying to feel less of crying,dizzy.
Thoughts: it's better in the morning, but the feeling will always be there until its solved.
situation: eyes closed, ignore the world, catch a breath and numb my thoughts to darkness.
......
last words: if i had one wish, i would choose to be oxygen, and not human;
Sylvester Naing
u know me then lets resolve this.x
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Michelle Lee
Milk, we can never talk about us, cause me and you would run, there's no use cause
we have too many rules to follow, you cant keep up with me, nor can i with you,
so as we'll just let this be as shallow as a punch and a laugh, knowing its my fault
even you as tough a man cant follow my need to run.
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Michelle Lee
I hate it when people run away from an unresolved problem.
i hate it when their shallow minds don't consider a second thought for solution.
i hate it that i werent even given the chance to call you witty or breath taking.
I hate it that when im trying my hardest and almost loosing my self
just to tell you how bad things are and yet, you ...don't understand.
I hate you for not making me realize how important you are
Michelle Lee
to the world, and evrryone else, to this, you did me wrong.
Sylvester Naing
il do better next time promise.
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Michelle Lee
i wish you asked me before i brought it up,
i wish you'd smack me before i react that way,
i wish you'll keep on even more till im tired rather than the other way.
i wish you would do everything more and beyond the things i'd do so
i wouldnt feel this way. i wish you could show me better so i wont have to think more.
I wish you wouldn't ...blink your eyes before i have had something to say
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Michelle Lee
I'm so upset and tight i could kill the stars from shining. Darkness,
night sky... make me fly tonight. i dream of not such beauty, and imagine of not such light.
Good Morning, midnight. Make my ache vanish right. PAST, FUCK YOU from making me feel this way,
i can cry. i can kill, but this all goes to you, BURN the fuck away from my now.
I have righteousness to take care of, syl- my first.
Sylvester Naing
baby im sorry for making you feel this way maybe i thought i could help an give her words
an snap her out but i guess im not ready for her yet next time ill know when to stop an leave her bii..
next time just say..syl please dont its gonna ...
happen again ull know better to keep talkn so rest now ill be ere in the morning ♥
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Michelle Lee
But i cant love at all, im no lover. I could kill more than to give love.
I would run faster than i could give way, i would die earlier than i were to give life,
i would to save more from hurting than to kill more from loving.
Tell me whats a girl to do, when she cant be as simple as 5 letters, happy.
Sylvester Naing
to have someone there like me to know an feel
what they want an i want an thats 9 letters..sylvester..x
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Michelle Lee
im all over the moon, i wish i could let chu understand.
i love you.the way i'd cook, read you , brush your hair, kiss you that gentle way i never do.
i love him, the way we'd talk about anything, have a beer or two and cry out to life
about its flaws it've brought to us. may i love everyone in ways so different,
that my Sylvester would... understand better than the rest ?
Sylvester Naing
Yes you may michelle cause theres all types of love ♥
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Michelle Lee
syl, i dont put my self down, i'll telling you whats been kicking in my unsettled chest for
all these years and time, syl it fucks me up, and i wont let me fuck you up you understand.
i'll run if its good for you, but i'll stil love my better half. you dont understand how hard it
was for me to explain to you who u were to me compared to milk... i've been waiting for that time.
Sylvester Naing
dont run...when she told me bout him i felt eased knowing where my place was
strong an where his places was, an bii thank you..i feel like i should know when to stop asking
questions or talking to her so bii sorry for making u think way back u didnt need it yesterday
was good enough from 4-9pm..x
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Michelle Lee
"You'll get tired, i will hurt chu, you will be fallen, and i cant catch you."
that's something that'll be with us for long, to lovers and friends...
you wont need me. and i'll get use to it.
Sylvester Naing
i dont believe such words not after what we had 14/2/11 x
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Michelle Lee
Syl, i love you most. i love you so much it kills me a bit each day knowing i'd be the reason
you're broken inside. I hate it when i think of you, it gets harder and harder each day to say goodbye.
Because just knowing you were happy was good enough, i could do it behind wall, watch u safe,
as long as i know u wont get hurt from the way i are, i'll be numb the third time and say i dont feel a thing at all...
Sylvester Naing
no more numbness i dont have to trust a word from her even if she dont trust her self...
but i do..u dont need to do this bii its just u trying to avoid what was before an i understand that
bii i do please dont give up on me...if u truellu love me ull wait for this to grow better..x
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Michelle Lee
when you dissapoint me, Jere, i had to loose my self to try harder, i didn't believe it,
i took the blame to the way you acted... so it was my fault i dint guide you well,
it was my fault you're not good enough for me, its my fault you were tired and
counldn't keep up with me, You disappointed me to the extent it was my fault
to tell my self you really did dissapoint me.
Michelle Lee
i know one when i see one, but when i see wrong, there's none.
Michelle Lee
i fear we're ever too close to this syl.. no matter how much u feel you wont let this happen,
but if i reacted if relation to this , it'd be because i feel im doing somthin wrong over again, i dont wannt
to lose something uppermost precious to me.I just wanna be better than enough.
Sylvester Naing
but im not him...as much as u feel or think or believe im not him im me an
i to said i never wanna be in the same situation ever again bi.
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Michelle Lee
your names give me the chills, because i fear to disappointments ones who mattered me most,
it scares me the most to no matter what you do, i'll be in the middle of your control to let it run smooth,
And that my mind stores fear of lost and despair to the people i most care,
and what hurts most is I'm the reason to all they couldn't bare.
Sylvester Naing
remember what was promised..x
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Michelle Lee
Syl, Milk, Jere, till one day you realise i'm a burden in your life, you'll notice you've worked
so finely at the start for something you cant be mindfully attached to.
Cause i meant it when i said its just me. Its how i am to make it not work.
Its how i'll be for me, but when its for others, i cant trust me to give myself to others.
Sylvester Naing
one day..x
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Michelle Lee
Listen to every drop shimmer, i missed the things it did to me.
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M:10:25pm
thts jst how i am bii sometimes
i feel the need to run so ppl wont feel for me,
and wont be draged along with my constant worries.
even with chu bii =s and everyone,
thts why im always in my one man's army...
M:10:29pm
one day you'll be tired of the way i am,
and i just hope i'd be the first to know biii....
S: 10:44pm
bii
S: 10:45pm
im tired… eyes hurt
sorry for goin on with this
i just needed to let u know how i felt
M:10:45pm
good nyt syl x
S: 10:45pm
an know why u couldnt sleep last night
M:10:46pm
one day i'll hate unfinished convos with my guts
but now u maybe excuse. night bii..x rest assured.
S: 10:47pm
wait please sleep tonight i hate it when she doesnt rest on time..
good nyt il try have a good day an u try have a pleasent day
M:10:49pm
i hate many things too , but i cant help it neither jst rest ,
leave me be syl. im always better this way
S: 10:49pm
one day..x
M:10:49pm
sharing is a burden admit to tht. nights
S: 10:49pm
nope its a cure
M:10:50pm
never. not with me. this wont finish anyway. so bii good nyt
S: 10:50pm
it will with me
M:10:51pm
it never finishes, coz its michelle lee. night bii
S: 10:51pm
it always finishes its sylvester naing
M:10:51pm
conflict
S: 10:52pm
resolve?
M:10:52pm
no, leave it.
S: 10:52pm
why? cause im tired bi?
M:10:53pm
u'll be even more tired one day
soo tired neither of us can stay.
S: 10:53pm
shut up bii stop saying that ><
M:10:53pm
JST realise good night bi
S: 10:54pm
noo i only said that so maybe she can be her
self when i go to sleep an thinks im better off..
M:10:55pm
i wish u'd be better offf with me.
S: 10:56pm
i wish u would stop putting ur self down an
making me wanna do things i dont think about
or wanna think i rather have you give me words
to help me then push me bii so please..
M:10:57pm
this is the only this i'd put my self down on ,
realistically perhapps u believe in beauty so much,
u can barely accept the opposite
S: 10:58pm
thats not true i can if i want to but i chose not iv
seen what it does an i dislike the feeling thats
why i choose the other bii..
M:10:59pm
jere dissapointed me after the 3rd year.
and it all just went to nothing from
everything to 0 contact just like tht
S: 10:59pm
so ur waiting for me to do the same?
M:11:00pm
so i want u to realise time isnt a factor
S: 11:00pm
can u least prevent it words touch cries
M:11:00pm
so u rather prevent than cure?
S: 11:00pm
no
M:11:00pm
he prevent ALOT he's always tired
he needs my comforting words after school
he wants his gf back he misses the old cuddly me
FUCK HIM if im ever a need then
fuck evryone of u if you need me to be this
or tht failing to keep up is a mistake
and i dont care what we had
S:11:03pm
are u talkn about us bii?
M:11:03pm
do u think so?
S: 11:04pm
sounds like ur talk bout us/
M:11:04pm
thts the problem im not and it already sounds like us
S: 11:04pm
please do quote when she talks
M:11:04pm
arent i SHITTING my self or what No, this is how it works..
S: 11:04pm
i dont get sometimes whos it at bii.
M:11:04pm
if i quote, u wouldnt care but i dint and u thought it was us,
S:11:05pm
FUCK HIM if im ever a need then fuck evryone of
u if you need me to be this or tht failing to keep up
is a mistake and i dont care what we had
M:11:05pm
but tht was me and jere, so do u know why i m the way i am?
afraid to make the same mistake in such a short time?
S: 11:06pm
the fuck everyone part to some people it sounds like
to them an then after u carried on with if you need
me sounds like me.. .bii could least say i dont care
what he an i had... baby...
M:11:06pm
that WAS to you
S: 11:07pm
really...
M:11:07pm
because thts how i had to act B4 too
S: 11:07pm
u dont care what we had?
M:11:07pm
i couldnt care with 3 years what do u think
S: 11:08pm
i think ur bullshitting
M:11:08pm
im most fucked when ppl let me down most FUCKED
M:11:09pm
u followin jere's footsteps,
S: 11:09pm
no bi u brought it up
M:11:09pm
THTS FUCKS ME UP i cant ignore tht
S: 11:09pm
then say i dont want to talk about it bii then theres no need
M:11:10pm
fine if u think not talking bout it solves it
soo perfect ly then go for it,
coz jere dint wanted to neither,
he couldnt keep up, he's tired,
he misses the old times AND SHIT go for it!
S: 11:10pm
noo bii wrong if i talk about it this is how she will
behave or act if i dont then she will think
otherwise what am i suppose to do bii?
M:11:12pm
1112 unlucky. does tht mean we cant talk about anything to each other already
S: 11:12pm
no bii u still dont get my point
M:11:13pm
why does it feel like u dont wanna talk about it instead of me?
S: 11:13pm
its like i cant talk to u but i want to about these
part of ur life with out been told whats wrong
M:11:14pm
are u kidding ive always felt like that was a no go
topic for u FUCK ASSUMPTIONS to the both of us
S: 11:14pm
have u listened to ur self bii read what we have
talked about an tell me what do u notice? ><
M:11:14pm
im mad
S: 11:14pm
and?
M:11:14pm
and im trying to tell u something that
kills me most so u wouldnt do the same
S: 11:15pm
besides that be tell mee your mood
M:11:15pm
and realise, that one little fragile thing can make me throw it all away as i did
S:11:15pm
ur status how do u look from my view?
M:11:16pm
shit? alarmed. which status. its just soo easy to throw shit away when i feel like tht
S: 11:17pm
i know bii
M:11:17pm
too bad you cant slap the fuck out of me
S: 11:17pm
thats why im doin my best
M:11:17pm
but too bad this is just ME
S: 11:18pm
too bad im already with her
M:11:18pm
everything is reversible
S: 11:18pm
too bad we both gonna work this out together
M:11:18pm
u can go get married now too
i'd be fine and happy for you, thts what i mean
S: 11:18pm
STOP BEEN SO DAMN STUBBORN BII..
M:11:18pm
ABOUT WHAT dude,
i want u to know i never always my concious fucking self
S: 11:19pm
i can tell ok bii
M:11:19pm
and sumtimes this me is more realistic than tru
and ppl rather fck ol than keep on and im granting
u a path fck it.
S: 11:19pm
please stop with the negatives..
M:11:19pm
good nyt syl bi
S: 11:19pm :'(
M: 11:20pm
please stop withe the unrealistic optimism
S: 11:20pm
sorry if i tried.x.nyt bi
__________________________________________________________
16th Feb Wednesday 6 pm onwards - 17th Feb Thursday 12pm
After Shine: there was a heavy rain, so ere goes :
**************************************************************
SnM Convo- 16th Feb- 6-11:20pm; M post 17th 11:30-12:30am; S post; 17th 11am-12pm
Sylvester Naing
♥
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Michelle Lee
i heard sorries, syl dont be killing me this early.please,
i hate that your sorries dont fit anywhere you say em, i hate most when you say:"sorry
for bringing it up" when all i wanted was to feel everything anything. the last thing i need
is for you to doubt your self. but everything i hate about you i love, or i wouldnt feel everythin...
in everyway. its morning, and you have duties to pay your visit, good day syl.
Sylvester Naing
i love you...
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Sylvester Naing
sometimes I feel like were the worst of friends
time is spent but just to her extent
and I don’t resent cus of her expense
I’m trying to explain but theres her defence
...I respect you, the things that I said I never meant to
straight, I ain’t fake and I aint gotta pretend boo
i see you in the mirror, you an exact resemblence
you just like me, I’m sorry I acted selfish
we both equal the same kind of people
me and you the picture frame gotta sequel
I wouldn’t leave you, I’m still by ya side
and at the end of the day I know you still down to ride
Bonnie and Clyde whatever you call it
I’m right behind, whenever your fallin
a big fight is just a small fraction
of us we just gotta be real and adapt it..x
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Michelle Lee
Laid still & its morning again,
10:10am. snaps out of it but not the problem.
Sylvester Naing
I’m trying to explain but theres her defence
...I respect you, the things that I said I never meant to
straight...wait for me bii it will get better it MUST GET BETTER..
we gotta do it step at a time even if it hurts im learning ur learning im...
yearning ur yearning for more.x
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Michelle Lee
16th Feb 6pm- 12am. Its time i wont forget nights like you. good bye tonight.
Sylvester Naing im sorry for bring out lastnight.
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Michelle Lee
Status: Hearts speeding, headaches, under my breath trying to feel less of crying,dizzy.
Thoughts: it's better in the morning, but the feeling will always be there until its solved.
situation: eyes closed, ignore the world, catch a breath and numb my thoughts to darkness.
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last words: if i had one wish, i would choose to be oxygen, and not human;
Sylvester Naing
u know me then lets resolve this.x
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Michelle Lee
Milk, we can never talk about us, cause me and you would run, there's no use cause
we have too many rules to follow, you cant keep up with me, nor can i with you,
so as we'll just let this be as shallow as a punch and a laugh, knowing its my fault
even you as tough a man cant follow my need to run.
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Michelle Lee
I hate it when people run away from an unresolved problem.
i hate it when their shallow minds don't consider a second thought for solution.
i hate it that i werent even given the chance to call you witty or breath taking.
I hate it that when im trying my hardest and almost loosing my self
just to tell you how bad things are and yet, you ...don't understand.
I hate you for not making me realize how important you are
Michelle Lee
to the world, and evrryone else, to this, you did me wrong.
Sylvester Naing
il do better next time promise.
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Michelle Lee
i wish you asked me before i brought it up,
i wish you'd smack me before i react that way,
i wish you'll keep on even more till im tired rather than the other way.
i wish you would do everything more and beyond the things i'd do so
i wouldnt feel this way. i wish you could show me better so i wont have to think more.
I wish you wouldn't ...blink your eyes before i have had something to say
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Michelle Lee
I'm so upset and tight i could kill the stars from shining. Darkness,
night sky... make me fly tonight. i dream of not such beauty, and imagine of not such light.
Good Morning, midnight. Make my ache vanish right. PAST, FUCK YOU from making me feel this way,
i can cry. i can kill, but this all goes to you, BURN the fuck away from my now.
I have righteousness to take care of, syl- my first.
Sylvester Naing
baby im sorry for making you feel this way maybe i thought i could help an give her words
an snap her out but i guess im not ready for her yet next time ill know when to stop an leave her bii..
next time just say..syl please dont its gonna ...
happen again ull know better to keep talkn so rest now ill be ere in the morning ♥
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Michelle Lee
But i cant love at all, im no lover. I could kill more than to give love.
I would run faster than i could give way, i would die earlier than i were to give life,
i would to save more from hurting than to kill more from loving.
Tell me whats a girl to do, when she cant be as simple as 5 letters, happy.
Sylvester Naing
to have someone there like me to know an feel
what they want an i want an thats 9 letters..sylvester..x
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Michelle Lee
im all over the moon, i wish i could let chu understand.
i love you.the way i'd cook, read you , brush your hair, kiss you that gentle way i never do.
i love him, the way we'd talk about anything, have a beer or two and cry out to life
about its flaws it've brought to us. may i love everyone in ways so different,
that my Sylvester would... understand better than the rest ?
Sylvester Naing
Yes you may michelle cause theres all types of love ♥
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Michelle Lee
syl, i dont put my self down, i'll telling you whats been kicking in my unsettled chest for
all these years and time, syl it fucks me up, and i wont let me fuck you up you understand.
i'll run if its good for you, but i'll stil love my better half. you dont understand how hard it
was for me to explain to you who u were to me compared to milk... i've been waiting for that time.
Sylvester Naing
dont run...when she told me bout him i felt eased knowing where my place was
strong an where his places was, an bii thank you..i feel like i should know when to stop asking
questions or talking to her so bii sorry for making u think way back u didnt need it yesterday
was good enough from 4-9pm..x
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Michelle Lee
"You'll get tired, i will hurt chu, you will be fallen, and i cant catch you."
that's something that'll be with us for long, to lovers and friends...
you wont need me. and i'll get use to it.
Sylvester Naing
i dont believe such words not after what we had 14/2/11 x
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Michelle Lee
Syl, i love you most. i love you so much it kills me a bit each day knowing i'd be the reason
you're broken inside. I hate it when i think of you, it gets harder and harder each day to say goodbye.
Because just knowing you were happy was good enough, i could do it behind wall, watch u safe,
as long as i know u wont get hurt from the way i are, i'll be numb the third time and say i dont feel a thing at all...
Sylvester Naing
no more numbness i dont have to trust a word from her even if she dont trust her self...
but i do..u dont need to do this bii its just u trying to avoid what was before an i understand that
bii i do please dont give up on me...if u truellu love me ull wait for this to grow better..x
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Michelle Lee
when you dissapoint me, Jere, i had to loose my self to try harder, i didn't believe it,
i took the blame to the way you acted... so it was my fault i dint guide you well,
it was my fault you're not good enough for me, its my fault you were tired and
counldn't keep up with me, You disappointed me to the extent it was my fault
to tell my self you really did dissapoint me.
Michelle Lee
i know one when i see one, but when i see wrong, there's none.
Michelle Lee
i fear we're ever too close to this syl.. no matter how much u feel you wont let this happen,
but if i reacted if relation to this , it'd be because i feel im doing somthin wrong over again, i dont wannt
to lose something uppermost precious to me.I just wanna be better than enough.
Sylvester Naing
but im not him...as much as u feel or think or believe im not him im me an
i to said i never wanna be in the same situation ever again bi.
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Michelle Lee
your names give me the chills, because i fear to disappointments ones who mattered me most,
it scares me the most to no matter what you do, i'll be in the middle of your control to let it run smooth,
And that my mind stores fear of lost and despair to the people i most care,
and what hurts most is I'm the reason to all they couldn't bare.
Sylvester Naing
remember what was promised..x
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Michelle Lee
Syl, Milk, Jere, till one day you realise i'm a burden in your life, you'll notice you've worked
so finely at the start for something you cant be mindfully attached to.
Cause i meant it when i said its just me. Its how i am to make it not work.
Its how i'll be for me, but when its for others, i cant trust me to give myself to others.
Sylvester Naing
one day..x
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Michelle Lee
Listen to every drop shimmer, i missed the things it did to me.
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17th feb Thursday next morn convo
S: 11:40am
tonight will get through this together bye bii please be okay
im feelin better hearing whats in her thoughts an mind so i can
be there for her.. lastnight i couldnt sleep but tonight i will sleep..
ciao bii i miss u.x
M: 11:42am
no wait till w/e focus .
S: 11:43am
no this is me trying harder more im like her i cant walk an not pretend i fell. promise bii
M: 11:44am
im not talking, be good please. keep safe driving.
S: 11:44am
this is me wanting
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S: 11:44am
can u please want my need to make things better i cant sleep with
out knowing we got through this stage i will drive safe if she lets me even?
M: 11:45am
its noon bi. duties.
S:11:46am
im begging bii,
M: 11:46am
good noon, good arvo, good night. i love you
S: 11:46am
u never wanna see me begg><
M: 11:46am
please dont do my part
please dont
you'll be fine. coz i am
no more bii please
im trying to breathe here.
please.
S: 11:47am
ok
but when?
u know i know it has to be done.
M: 11:47am
not soon but close
thank you syl
S: 11:47am
kay bii
M: 11:48am
for ur time
S:11:48am
dont thank me
M: 11:48am
you must go
S: 11:48am
i didnt give u enough time
i have to do better
next time
M:11:48am
im use to it with everyone its fine.
take care.
S:11:48am
i miss u:"
ciao love,,xx
M: 11:49am
pls dont miss me
farewell.
S: 11:49am
hard not to
M:11:49am
and i 'll still love you syl '/
S: 11:50am
i know u do
M: 11:50am
bye
S: 11:50am
an i still love u too michelle
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