Half a decade worth

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"Dreams leave reality out of it,
which our minds are based on"

if you remember it, its close,
possible, before reach...

a long thought if you can’t,
don’t try; Coz you're just not
meant to; puzzles laid in different ends.
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I've remembered mine, 2nyts...
based on the similar contention...
Union of two. In different
locations that dint matter.

Only the roles did &
withsome that dint last.
I'm sorry for the one that was left
behind, or who just  disappeared,
but... Never knew it takes

distance to remember and
forgetsomeone better, based on

how important they are to you.
Some depiction ruins...
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I woke up, thinking they were dreams,

but maybe they were long thoughts?
It won’t goaway, numbing helps...
followed by all the buts. 

Perhaps the content might stay with
me, perhaps it won’t.
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I always thought myself as

"forgetful" but really,
I’m only phasing out what I don’t
need remember, till I’m so good at it,

I do it instinctively to everything
but my main direction to strive, yes- selfish.

Meredith - protector of the sea, my
thoughts are the sea, and I’m the guard to use

em wisely before they drown or impact.
I know where and what I must to choose,

till others of my same kind creates
that blockage that i can pass through,
more meaning to life- cause it doesn’t
stand the perfect way u want it.
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Perhaps reading this again will
have me reminiscing –chance,
That I would once say a million
words to object to its inexistence,
But things change when others’
presence signifies its meaning.
241010. 7thDay of the Week.X LVL.________________________________________________________

Reminiscin aint easy.

"When i look back, things get harder."

so question why she do what she've done, to remain unchanged, & numb.