Cant & dont.

Sometimes... 

i hope many could know the ways in which shes divided.
Her mode of adaptation. The faces, phases and ways...
and pray that one can accept that when shes in the game,
she cant afford to go soft at hrt, she cant put her ways to
love on replay, she cant respond in ways she want others
to know. A code, a rule that needs to be follow. Everytime
she breaks it... she drown her self. with thoughts, reasons,&
actions. Shes sorry. I cant go off track is what i'm saying...
or if it was to leave one stranded for a lil while, & save lives
in the long run i would. Love & career cannot go together.

Its sunday, im receiving messages. my heart is kicking, but
my mind wont let it.If i havent had the weights on me, there
wouldnt be limits.. and i wouldve been able to feel the same.
Right now,i cant & dont feel a thing, still searching for reasons.

cause i knew deep down, there are some things waiting to come out.
"when its all over, we'll have much to share & give, much to learn &;
believe" im really trying. but i cant hide but to wish theres more in him
than there is more in me, coz one wont get tired to feel, but tired to hope.

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