after time

Coz he always thought it was best if he did what
he thought was better for her. The chances are,
is that she does the same. So if one day, you do
read this, i just wanna let chu know... Your
place in mine differs from usual. Its like "i cant let my self go", that you are like "myself", but
further more, & parted. Syl asked if it'd be any different if you were ere. i knew it wasnt easy. & knew that life would'nt be built that way.coz everything are laid out more complex for people to learn, try and take chances, or give chances to change.But i guess everything is for the better if i did let this other half part.coz I cherish freedom, you deserve yours as much. & im sorry, i aint certain but, i have many other reachable souls too, & i cant let em down neither.he once said be a team player or it would'nt work.But "underCircumstances"
is what thats played in my mind... things shape it self if its meant to be..so tell me, perhaps in time, 10.10.10; 10.03.10 i'd remember. or perhaps u wud. but i never asked much or any at all so perhaps, theres no need.coz that would've been for the better. I knew i dont go to places like you do, i hope this home would not shatter, but it is made out of milk&cookies. so till time have two parted, let the sand bury whats sacred. for a long lost only awaits on a hisory making discovery.


I never urge to confront you, cause i kno i'd hold on for your urge to confront
me. a simple "i'll be fine" is worth a million other words. a simple " be good"
means a new dimension worth of regards. i knew i would want you happy. i 've
always knew i'd be there for you. But everyone find new reasons each day...
new reasons to live and die for... new reasons to love and try for, i taking chances.
tho still need you sufficient, I knew we completed another. but perhaps giving
a chance on what we exchange everyday, transfering that force into reality, mlk
thats true happiness okay? i want to see a real cause to effect every smile on ur

face. Not ones that is felt only inside. chu meet girls everyday, 37th aint too bad.
And i was for real when i said, 50th was a nice number. so toss ur body around
for them. cause you know what you needed. perhaps what we had thru words
were only powerful when we're detached from our bodies, our distractions. To
me, the girls  you meet would always be just "those girls", someday, come to me
tell me bout "her", not this girl, no sins jst for real. Coz i wanna watch you... know
what its like for realism to unfold, to the things i could never give, hang in there mlk
shes somewhere. I only hope u'd abuse ur numbers and attempt the 50th so you
could commit in detaching lust & reality all together, perhaps she've been
nknowingly infront of you. ur" mgan fx" lady sounds as playful as the mlk i know.
it made me happyfor chu some how:)heh...wtv happens u deserved every bit of
it okay? dont hold back.


the twin can never stop sharing the reflection of her nonidentical half. I've been ere.
I just cant stick around much anymore. So when we do speak again. i'd only pray you'd
be that whole Mlky i know. with no meanings attached to you like you've respected
our ways. coz we know it well. [*dont let me be the last to know, dont hold back,
jst let it go.] jst let what you had to say go.. out ur breath like we're fed to confess,
coz even if these words werent just for you, i hope others who read this could put
themselves into our shoe and go about it. Coz this is a new dimensional regard one
can have for another. a foundation between two... ; jst be happy. dont worry bout me.
i'm like water, remember?  mlk, syl just be happy. it'd mean alot to me. x llvlL +